GONE BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN

 TNT CARMEL COVERED KOKO

 September 8, 2003 ----- October 27, 2011

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

 Sadly Missed............................

 

Till we meet again...........................

Helpless

That pretty much describes my state of mind these past two weeks.  Helpless to be able to DO anything to help Carmel.  Look at that face.......

THIS IS CARMEL

 

Carmel has a heart murmur.  We found out how bad of a murmur by seeing a Doggie Cardiologist.  It didn't take long after discovering this,  that she had to go on heart medication, diuretics,

and  special "cough" pills.   A regular little pharmacy starting up in the kitchen!

Just when I thought we had one thing under control,  poor little Carmel has started to have seizures.   Unless you have ever experienced it,  I can't begin to explain the sheer terror I felt when I heard her cry out.   Helpless.......no other word.  

Upside - all her tests are clean - they can't explain why seizures happen really.  They just do.  I have begun searching the web and hopefully will be able to find others to talk to who are going thru the same thing.  The one site I found is really very helpful - http://www.canine-epilepsy.com/Graves.html  it reiterated everything the Vet said to me but having it in writing to LOOK at every time I need reassurance is a blessing.  

So.....a week on the new meds and everything is looking good.  She's perking up and acting more like the old Carmel going out grazing in the grass with Gaston.

And then we hit the brick wall and the seizures start again.  And it's time to up the dosage and spin the wheel to see if this works and for how long since there is no real "cure".  Hopefully we can find the right cocktail for Carmel so these seizures become less frequent.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Why am I back?

I can't believe it's been as long as it has since I've written.   It's even harder to believe people have actually asked me when I was going to get back at it again.  You would think that after a year there would be so much to say.  Let's see....oh yeah, I was fired from my job of 16 years for insubordination.  Only took them 16 years to come up with that?  In the state of Pennsylvania is OK to fire someone without any reason actually.  For those that wanted to know.....let's just say that if your boss trashes you to vendors/clients/customers in correspondence and you have the audacity to confront them, THAT is called insubordination and grounds to be fired.

Actually it was a major relief once the compensation started and my financial state was put in order.  I no longer purchased Tylenol in the 500 count bottles and to say that it really felt like a weight (STRESS) was lifted off my shoulders is an understatement.  How many people out there are working in jobs that they like but with people/for people that don't appreciate what you do ?  How many people are working 50-60 hours a week and not getting so much as a thank you ?  Do you work someplace where if you don't eat lunch in the lunchroom you are the topic at lunch?  Do you work with someone whose head is so far up the managers ass they see thru one set of eyes?  Are you part of the "in" crowd.?   How many of you have heard how Lucky you are to have a job ?

Well listen up.....if that's the kind of job you have you are not so lucky.  Lucky is getting the hell out!

You've heard the old cliche - when one door closes another one opens - and even if it doesn't open right away, it does open.  And I can honestly say the air on this side of the door is so much fresher!

My head is clear again and hopefully I won't make the same mistakes thinking the people I work with are more than just associates.  Keeping my "first impression" sense about me I will try not to get involved in the Drama that is the workplace.