Helpless

That pretty much describes my state of mind these past two weeks.  Helpless to be able to DO anything to help Carmel.  Look at that face.......

THIS IS CARMEL

 

Carmel has a heart murmur.  We found out how bad of a murmur by seeing a Doggie Cardiologist.  It didn't take long after discovering this,  that she had to go on heart medication, diuretics,

and  special "cough" pills.   A regular little pharmacy starting up in the kitchen!

Just when I thought we had one thing under control,  poor little Carmel has started to have seizures.   Unless you have ever experienced it,  I can't begin to explain the sheer terror I felt when I heard her cry out.   Helpless.......no other word.  

Upside - all her tests are clean - they can't explain why seizures happen really.  They just do.  I have begun searching the web and hopefully will be able to find others to talk to who are going thru the same thing.  The one site I found is really very helpful - http://www.canine-epilepsy.com/Graves.html  it reiterated everything the Vet said to me but having it in writing to LOOK at every time I need reassurance is a blessing.  

So.....a week on the new meds and everything is looking good.  She's perking up and acting more like the old Carmel going out grazing in the grass with Gaston.

And then we hit the brick wall and the seizures start again.  And it's time to up the dosage and spin the wheel to see if this works and for how long since there is no real "cure".  Hopefully we can find the right cocktail for Carmel so these seizures become less frequent.